I wish I had the words to describe it...

"By the time I recognize this moment; This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light; pretend that it somehow lingered on"
-"Clarity" John Mayer

There is just something about today, something I cant quite capture. this feeling that everything in my world is settling, while in reality, my family is living in a state of chaos. there is this feeling of freedom in my heart that I have never felt. This feeling that no matter what happens in this world, there will always be someone there to love me. A sense of pure happiness and contentment, yet i feel as though nothing has changed. God works in ways I will never understand. He has a way of making me feel like there is nothing that could ever finish me, almost like an invincibility of spirit. There is a weight that has been lifted from my shoulders and a Holy hand laid on my heart. I pray that my earthly doubts will not shadow this incredible feeling.

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And so it begins...

June 20th: I met my roommate today; God is good.

June 21st: Today was my first day of college orientation and it was absolutely perfect.

June 22nd: I registered for classes today and saw my new dorm; let's just say im extremely blessed. 

These three lines are from a new journal I've just started keeping where I will write a line a day for five years. But I could do an entire post just on that. In short, I began the journal two days before I left for college orientation, the beginning of the next four years of my life. And if those years are anything like the last two days, I will live them knowing this is where I am meant to be.

I can honestly say that orientation was one of the best experiences of my life. It more than exceeded my expectations. I spent two days in sessions that made me feel more and more at home with each one I sat through. I laughed and talked to people like we were never strangers. My roommate is way more than i could have ever hoped for. She's absolutely wonderful. I got lucky and got a corner room thats much bigger than most of the rooms in the dorm. I got all but one class I stressed about getting, and now I dont have class until 11. I loved each and every part of the campus and the mission that Belmont stands for. I know in my heart that God has placed me where I am supposed to be. I am so incredibly blessed.