Tonight, I heard God speak to me while I stood alone on a bridge. He took me alone to the edge of my city to stand in front of all He had given me.
I can't really say what brought me there. I'd had kind of a rough night, and something told me to just drive. It was warm and windy and smelt like the summer nights I always find myself going back to. I drove all over downtown when something told me to go to the bridge. Id been once and kind of knew where I was going, but somehow I got there without any direction (which if you know me personally is a huge feat, too directionally challenged for my own good). I sat for a while in the parking lot looking up at the skyline that spread before me. It was late, so I wasn't sure it was safe to walk the bridge by myself. But a calm came over me. I got out of my car and walked the bridge as people slowly made their way off. And I cried as I looked at the water below me and how it was dark but still flickered with the reflection of the city lights above it. Everything I'd ever wanted was painted on the sky in front of me. And that's when I realized I had it all wrong.
I've been on the edge for months now feeling like nothing in my life makes sense anymore. I've stood on the line between anger and desperation. I've let my voice echo through the caves I try to ignore. I've gotten lost in canyons and I've scaled mountains, but all the while, I've been facing the wrong direction.
But tonight God spun me around. My canyons became bridges. My dark waters became bright stars.
Tonight, He showed me my heart.
And it is full of city lights.
(title from the song "The City" by Ed Sheeran)
