Just a little bit of sun is all you need...

I'm currently sitting outside in shorts and a t shirt in january. Guess this is God way of showing that even in the midst of darkness and cold, you can always find a little sunshine :)

so many dreams, so many plans

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It came today, and it changed everything. I sit here tonight, not being able to sleep because my mind wont shut off. But this time is isnt because of stress or fear. I am completely happy. Today, I received an acceptance letter to the college of my dreams.

Its beginning to hit me. All my life, Ive dreamed of living in Nashville. My heart is in that city. Everything is music. I belong there. Until now, it seemed so distant. Ive always said "When i get to Nashville..." Well that future is the present. In less than a year I will be living on my own. in nashville. I will step foot on campus knowing no one and if im being honest, i am terrified. All the little voices keep telling me that time is ticking away and soon i will have to say goodbye. Saying goodbye is the last thing I want to do. But at the same time, I know this is where i am supposed to go. I will leave all my friends to pursue what I've always dreamed of.

I know it sounds cliche, but now is the time. I will take every second of the next few months and make the best of it. I will create memories. I will let the ones i love know that i love them. Forgive the ones who have hurt me. Admit my wrong doings. Open my mind, but always guard my heart. Theres not much time left in this little town. Before I know it, this little girl will be headed to the big city...


Post Title from: a hannah montanna song i cant remember the name of (please dont judge me :) )

So this is the internet?

Its amazing how far we've come. Even since I've been alive. We've gone from writing in personal journals, to writing our feelings for the world to see. So i guess this becomes my online diary. Ive decided to take this as an opportunity to write the things Im too afraid to speak; to say what others are afraid to say. But tonight, I will take my first blog to be honest about myself.

My name is Parker and I am 17 years old. For obvious reasons i will try to keep my location private. God is my strength and music is my passion. Everything in my life revolves around those two things... and well school. I found God in 2005 and my life has never been the same. I do my very best to make Him the basis of everything I do. Writing has been a part of my life as long as i can remember. I write songs and play guitar. I hope one day to live in Nashville and make a career of my music. I have a youtube channel. I love country music more than any person should. I know, I know, but go ahead and judge me. I am not a morning person. At all. Seriously wake me up before 10 A.M. and you might lose an arm. I say up until all hours of the night. I enjoy spending time alone. I cannot go to sleep without making my bed first. Celebrity gossip is my guilty please. I love anything remotely romantic. Even the cheesiest love stories you could think of. I wish people cared enough about what i was doing to update a twitter. I spend entirely too much time on the computer. I wear WAY too many bracelets every day. I love fashion and makeup. My style is very different from the usual in my town. I come from a blended family; my dad, my brother, me, my mom her husband and his two daughters. I am a middle child. I am close to my parents. I look exactly like my dad. I always overload myself. I am currently the president of a club, play the guitar in a worship band, actively participate in Student Government Association, a member of the BETA club and taking AP and advanced courses. Yeah. I am a little crazy, but i enjoy being busy. I am guarded. I have been through depression. I have come out stronger than I couldve ever imagined because of God. I love my friends more than they will ever know. They are the first true ones I've had in a while. I will NEVER be the one to make the first move. I am traditional that way. I have never been in love, never been in a relationship. But i still believe there is love to be shared. I am confident in who I am, though I may never fully know who that is. I am done settling. With me, what you see is not always what you get.

Well for now, that is all I will tell you. I pledge to make this blog into something special. But I do not mean special for those who read it (if anyone ever does). Writing is part of who I am. I will use it share a piece of me. I want to plant just one footprint in this place before I have to leave it. Take this journey with me. Heres to the rest of my life, whether it is blog-worthy or not.